Breathing Under Water Kind of Day

Today was a pretty good day, despite feeling like I was walking around breathing under water. I am quite certain I am looking at the early stages of a sinus infection. Before I go running to the doctor though, I will try beating it here on my own.  That said this feeling threw a monkey wrench into how I saw my day going.

Last night I wrote that I saw myself waking early to have extra quiet time, and filling my cup before tending to the needs of my family. Silly me though I forgot how my expectations seldom match up with reality. I awoke only minutes before the children, and just as I opened my bible my hubby steps out of the shower and begins talking to me. It is in that moment I decided instead of reading my bible to tend to the family.

This is not to say I neglected my bible, no, I grabbed my phone and listened to the bible app read to me this morning, as I made breakfast and lunch for my darling. As he headed off to work I fed myself and the children. From there I moved slowly through the morning.

Our morning school time was a brief lesson that introduced The American Civil War and what it was over. I loved my oldest’s comment regarding her realization as to what a slave is, “That is NOT awesome.” (Lately everything is either amazing or awesome. So for something to be not awesome is a BIG deal to her.) Anyway our lesson on slavery was followed up by a reading from Little House in the Big Woods. I have to say I love how this book has both my 5- year old and almost 4- year old engaged.

Later in the day I introduced a new series of lessons to my children, but because I still felt like I was breathing under water these lessons were had from the snuggly comfort of my queen size bed. I have to say that is one of the things I love about homeschooling the kids, there is no one size fits all perfect way to do it. We have a classroom we created to use, which we do, but you can just as often find us in the living room, in the kitchen, or maybe snuggled up in Mommy and Daddy’s bed for a lesson.

I think my favorite part of the day though was enjoying a pancake breakfast, for dinner with the family. Yes dinner time here has it’s inherent stressors, “keep your elbows off the table,” “sit up,” “mouth closed,” “elbows,” “eat, just eat, please.” But there is still something sweet about the family sitting down and really enjoying a meal together. Now I can please 5 people with every aspect of a meal, but when I know I have a meal that can at least make everyone smile, I will call that a win.

I hope your day was sweet. That even in the midst of the crazy, the frustrating, and the tiring you had those sweet moments. Those moments that make your soul sing and you can look at and say you know what? Today was a good day.

Good night. Sleep tight. And don’t let the bed bugs bite.

Perfect Storm

Today was the perfect storm of events for a horrible no good very bad day here. It has been a day that has left me drained, depressed, and emotionally rung through the ringer.

It started with no one showing for the Women’s Group I was hoping to lead. Progressing to the realization I had no friend I could call to invite over and commiserate with. It became the kind of morning/ early afternoon I would have just liked to have had a friend to sit down and enjoy a cup of coffee and conversation with.

Instead, it turned into my toddler screaming at me for food and then not wanting to eat what was for lunch. My 3 and 5-year olds fussing over lunch as well. To then being kicked and having my hair pulled because I was trying to next put the toddler in bed. When the tired child finally gave in to the much needed sleep, I looked at the older two and all eyes were closed and breathing regular.  Or so I thought…

I go to lay down and I hear my oldest talking and progressively louder.  I go in the room to tell her to be quiet and not wake her sleeping sisters when I see what just causes me loose it. Now this is not to say I blame the child it is to say in a tired and depressed state I made poor choices. I yelled, I screamed, and handled her far too roughly. And what was this trigger? Darling middle daughter was poking the eye of my sleeping toddler who fought me, quiet literally, to go to sleep.

This lead to a mess of phone calls and messages between my husband and myself, to me spending most of 2.5 hours hiding in my closet. I cried to God, cried to my husband, cried for myself, and at times just cried. The mom guilt was heavy with me. I felt I didn’t deserve my children. I felt they would be better off with just about anyone other than me.

I have to tell you this level of feeling alone, tired, and guilt is not good for anyone. It is draining. When you add in crazy pregnancy hormones and mood swings everything is magnified. If I could have kept perspective through each step then maybe I wouldn’t be getting ready to tell you and my husband good night now. I plan to be in bed before 8:30 here. I plan to rest, re charge my batteries, and perhaps start my day a little earlier tomorrow. That way I can enjoy a few extra moments alone with God before the kids come at me with all their needs. I know if I can fill my cup before I attempt to fill theirs I will be in a better spot tomorrow.

So good night, sleep tight, and don’t let the bed bugs bite.


Writing, My Day, and Big News

So I have started and stopped writing here on several occasions. I have had big plans. Now I lay those plans to rest and I purpose just to write. Honestly when I write for viewership, or what I think will be of interest to others it drains me. On the other hand when I write  for myself it refills me. I think part of my problem with starting this blog back up again is not understanding the difference.

Today was a day full of run, run, run. From the moment I got up I knew I had a list that was extensive that I needed to get done. Still I stopped this morning and had a few quiet moments alone with God. In those moments, I found the peace I needed to step forward into my day.

I so appreciated that peace by lunch time, because by then I had done almost a comically long list of tasks. I had set up my five year old with ABCMouse so she could get some school in today. I collected eggs, folded some laundry, found my almost 2-year old eating toothpaste. I think the girls and I picked up the same mess 3 different times. I made breakfast, and had lunch in the works, while I was trying to get us out the door.

See today I had an appointment with a maternal fetal medicine doctor. (Due to personal and family history my OB wants to follow me a little more closely, but did not feel I was high risk.) This appointment meant that not only did I have a 40 minute drive to go see the specialist, I also had to get the kids to the babysitter’s place. Well between my attempts to keep moving us along and mostly I think due to the grace of God I made it to my appointment on time.

In fact when I finally arrived today, they asked if I would mind pushing back my appointment by 15-20 minutes. A lady who had the appointment right after mine, had her husband going into surgery at the same time as her appointment and wanted to be there for him when he went in. I said no problem. I understand. In fact the extra time gave me time to read and breathe.

Overall, my appointment went well. Baby is looking healthy, but is bigger than they were looking for to run some of the tests. So I will need to go back in two weeks so we can run some different tests that look for the same thing, but in a different way. I also received some really exciting news. The ultrasound tech and the doctor both agree that my newest little one will be a boy. The tech said it is still a little early to say with 100% certainty, but she felt that there was, “too much between the legs,” for her to want to say girl.

So finally after three girls our family will be welcoming a little boy. We are excited, because he will be a welcome change. I love the pink and girly but I am ready for something different. Rusty is excited that he will no longer be quite so out numbered. In the end though if for some reason the doctor and the tech are wrong we will be still happy to welcome more pink into our world.

The rest of my day was a flurry of getting the kids, going to speech therapy, making dinner, bed time routines, and fussy babes. So then for me to say at this point I am exhausted and thankful for stillness, feels like an understatement.

Good night.



Regaining Momentum

I have tried to regain momentum in blogging a couple times before. The problem is I think I took on too much, too fast. This time around I want to keep things simple. I want to share what is on my heart and mind. I want to encourage you. I just don’t want to drain myself in the process. So for now I will just be posting once a week.

I would also like to invite you to join me in prayer as I begin writing my very first bible study. This will be a study on obedience and seeking the Lord. This idea is one that has been a seed planted in my heart for awhile now. It was only yesterday though I began to see what that seed was growing into.

It has really grown out of my desire to find a study to help guide and teach my young children what it looks like to obey. See we can tell them we want them to obey ourselves or God all we want, but unless we reach their hearts and show them what healthy God-fearing obedience looks like they will fall short.

So if you are here today reading this I thank you. I thank you that you haven’t completely given up on me. I thank you for your patience, as I seemingly disappeared and got myself together.

Messages, Judgments, Choices, and Your Kids

Spank your kids or else they will be unruly, disrespectful, little brats.

Messages, Judgments, Choices, and Your Kids

Spank your kids and you will damage their self-esteem,  teach them violence equals love, or that they can bully those smaller than them.

Give them time outs kids need discipline, they need order, they need consequences.

Give them time outs and they feel shamed, neglected, humiliated, isolated.

Breastfeed. It is best, it is natural, it is cheap, you are doing what only comes naturally.

Breastfeed. But only at home, only when I don’t know what you are doing, only when you can find a place alone, or only when you and baby are fully covered.

Bottle feed in public and no one tells you to cover the baby, to go to the next room, or go to the bathroom to do that.

Bottle feed though and hear the whispers, feel misunderstood,  or even just feel defeated.

Buy organic, free range, cruelty free, hormone free, non-gmo it is best. It is the only way to go.

Buy what you can do your best, don’t worry about the gmo’s it is all hype anyway.

Homeschool vs. Public School vs. Private School vs. Charter School

Cry it Out vs. Not Crying it Out

Free Range Parenting vs Helicopter Parenting vs Any one who falls in between

Parenting can take on many forms. We hear many messages each and everyday on how other people think we should be doing it. We might even be putting on our judgy pants and telling other parents how they are doing things wrong.

We might even feel justified in judging, giving un-asked for advice, or commenting about their choices in not so hushed tones. Maybe it is because we have raised our kids, and they are successful happy adults. Maybe it is because our kids are older, or we have more kids. Maybe it is because our kids did something like that once. Or maybe it is because we just don’t understand.

That last one there is the real kicker, isn’t it? Do we  really understand? Have we walked a mile in that person’s shoes? Don’t judge, what you don’t understand. Let each of us extend grace, encouragement, love, and support.

That tired, distracted mama with a real stinker of a kid? Give her a supportive smile. Heck maybe you are the friend who can help distract the kid for a moment, while she takes a breathe, finishes a phone call, or cooks dinner.

Instead of telling a friend all the, “Well I would do’s,” ask them about why they made the choices they made. Then listen, really listen.

In the end remember, “Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it might benefit those who listen.” (Ephesians 4:29) It is not our place to be critical of their choices. We are not the ones who were tasked with raising their children. Instead let us, Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Ephesians 4:32)



Giving Thanks – Ephesians 1:16-17

Ephesians 1: 16-17

I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers. I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.


As I read through this several things stand out to me. One is that God is thankful for us. Granted Paul is the author of this book but the bible is also God’s love letter to us.  Keeping with the idea that Paul was the author I also took note of somethings about Paul’s behavior. He was prayerful, thankful, and used prayer to express his gratitude to God.  Paul also used prayer to request wisdom and revelation for those he was thankful for.

These observations led me to some personal revelations, revelations that I pray will bring a greater peace, contentment, and thankfulness to my life. Daily I need to remember to thank God for my family, friends, home, garden, animals, the sunshine, and the rain. Expanding on that idea even just a little further I am going to start a gratitude journal. The beauty of such journal is that is looks differently for different people, but I highly recommend everyone start one. I also need to actively pray for those I love to be drawn closer to God.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for loving me. Seeking me and never giving up on me. Help me to see everyone in my life the way you do. As I pray for those around me to have wisdom, revelation, and a closer walk with you so then may I grow in those areas too. 
In your name I pray,

Ephesians 1: 15-16

Ephesians 1: 15- 16

For this reason, ever since I heard about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, I have not stopped giving thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers.


As I read through this verse I found it important to not Paul is grateful that the Ephesians have faith in God and that they love the Lord’s workers. It is important to note that Paul thanks God for them, and is praying for them.

After reading through these verses I feel convicted that it is important that I need to spend time praying for those in my life who love God’s people and for those who are discovering their faith in you. I also feel led to befriend more people who love the Lord and who are serving him.

Dear Lord,

I just pray you would reveal to me who in my life really loves you and loves your people. Help me to see them so that I may surround them with prayer.

In your name I pray,



*** What are some of your takeaways from reading these couple verses? How could you apply what you are seeing/ learning?***


Introducing: Devotionals

If you have joined me in the past you know I am no theologian. I am a simple house wife and mother who loves the Lord and desires to follow his leading. So as I begin this new series of posts, devotionals really, I want you to know I am still learning and growing in my understanding of scripture.


What you will be seeing is my observations, and practical ways I hope to apply what I am seeing to my life. That said you might see somwthing I don’t or would apply something differently than I would. I welcome your feedback/ insights. Leave them in the comment section below.

I don’t have a catchy name for this series. It was born simply from trying to lead a group of ladies through daily devotionals. This way I hope to help others grow in the word, but at a pace that works with the busy lives of mothers.

Review of Egg-Shaped Cake Batter Rice Krispy Treats

This weekend I attempted something I have seen floating around on both pinterest and Facebook: Egg Shaped Rice Krispy Treats. Now I did decided to go extra special in doing so and make them cake-batter flavored. We love cake-batter flavored Rice Krispy Treats. When I make them they go faster than most any other dessert that I make. So naturally I thought it would be fun to have them in an Egg shape for Easter.


Well let me tell you the egg shape was a bust. I found out just how messy it is to put them in the eggs. I also forgot to use non-stick spray. So the eggs stuck to the plastic shells. From there I could not get the two halves of the egg to form together into one solid egg.

My verdict: The egg-shaped Rice Krispy treats are not worth the hassle.

I took my remaining batter and simply formed your traditional Rice Krispy Treats. If you are looking for a tasty recipe that is a little different from normal and sure to be a big hit check out Gimme Some Oven.

***What are some recipes that you have been excited to try that just did not work out for you?***

More to Learn

This weekend I didn’t get as much done around here as I could have. The only project I helped with didn’t see my help till it was almost done. If you had stopped by last night around 9 pm, you would have found me standing in a large fish tank, attempting to smooth wrinkles in the lining, as the garden hose filled it. See the husband has been working on developing an aquaponics gardening system for the large green house and I was doing my part to help out last night.

More to Learn

The hubby busy building and assembling the fish tank.

The only other major things I did around the house this weekend involved my kitchen, the cooking and cleaning of it. Well that and cupcakes. My sweet sister-in-law turned 20 and I made red velvet cheesecake stuffed cupcakes for her.

See the reason I didn’t step outside the kitchen much and do more work around the property is simple, I stepped outside the kitchen and did something better with my time. I chose to spend time with the Lord. “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”  Luke 10: 41-42 See this weekend I was a little more Mary and a little less Martha. I chose what was better. I chose to spend time with my Lord, learning about my Lord, deepening my walk with him, and walking away refreshed. I went to a women’s conference hosted by my church. The topic: Walking In Faith.

I learned many things, and I was reminded of many things. You are never too old or too young to be used by the Lord. We just need to ask the Holy Spirit  to come and do work in our lives. Don’t judge who you are, by how you are. In other words our worth is not defined by our choices or our circumstances, but rather by the love of our Creator. And those are just a couple of the nuggets that touched my heart.

Shirt design by NBT

Shirt design by NBT

Through out this confrence I was also challenged to let go of stress. One of the fruits of the spirit is joy. Laughter is a by product of joy, and you can not hold on to stress and laugh. To take this idea further the speaker offered some points to help you, “Be Up In A Down World.”

  1. Pay attention to the world around you, God’s beauty is everywhere.
  2. Listen. People in our lives need us to listen.
  3. Learn. Read. Discover New things.
  4. Want to feel better? Laugh.
  5. Ask for help. Lean on one another. (Or as I heard someone else say once, don’t stand in the way of your own blessings.)
  6. Love. We all could use more love.

As the confrence wrapped up and I was listening to the closing music and reflecting on what the Lord laid upon my heart, I penned my final thoughts.

I need more laughter in my life.
I need less computer.
I need more God.
I need less stress.
I need more patience.
I need less tv.
I need more books.
I need less busy.

*** What is it that you could use more or less of in your life?***

***As always if this post has touched you in anyway please feel free to share it, you never know who else in your life might benefit from reading this today. All I as is that you would link back to the original post. Thank you.***